Alright, I don’t want to bore you with too many details today, but instead mainly try to leave you with how I am feeling and let you know the battle has officially begun and I am on the offensive now. 😊 Today was treatment day. Barring any issues with blood tests or the new port, we knew that chemo at least would be ready. We had found a way to have Opdivo approved for treatment, but given that was only last Thursday I believe, I wasn’t holding out hope. Apparently, if you remove the insurance piece, things can move a lot faster, who would have ever thought?
After an easy drive (okay, ride for me), I was there and received that wonderful news early on, we were going to be able to do both chemo and immuno today. Now we were really going to work. The day is relatively easy. Check in, find my chair for the day, blood test (okay, much easier through the port btw,no doubt will be some hassles and has been some discomfort, but I am not upset about not needing to be stuck with needles every two weeks), and if all good, the treatment starts. 30 min infusion on the immuno, a flush to make sure we get it all, a 2 hours chemo infusion, a push chemo infusion, my pump (48 hour chemo infusion), and I am out of there. A quick 4 and half hours later and I am headed home. I’ve had swimming workouts as a swimmer and a coach that have felt longer, haha.
K picked up lunch and I only mention that because it was some of the best huevos rancheros I’ve ever had and that’s one on my favorite breakfasts. Thanks Jeff K for the restaurant rec so long ago. Then we just got home around 1:15 or so and I just took the afternoon to rest. Didn’t end up sleeping, but a nice afternoon of rest and recovery. Texted with T for a while and getting to chat swimming a bit. Wrote some workouts, cleared some email, and just relaxed.
I am keeping an open and prepared mind for what I will need to battle through as I go, but so far so good. And I mean really. Nearly passed out in the chair after the immuno, but then we kind of want that body reaction (jump starting the immune response). I just put stuff down and rested a bit. Then started to feel better, dare I even say stronger. I got a good amount of work done, etc, but that’s not my point, here’s my point.
I feel like the competitive juices are flowing. I am in the fight and ready to go! I hated being pushed back a week to 10 days, but I can tell you I think I was in a much better physical condition to handle it all today than I was before. Even, or maybe even especially, mentally I am better now that I would have been without last Monday. Good luck… bad luck…. We’ll see… (but it doesn’t let the insurance company off the hook for poor patient care IMHO.)
So we fight, and I feel ready. No doubt I will have my ups and downs, but I AM READY TO FIGHT! I feel kind of like walking into that mid-season championship meet where maybe you aren’t really “rested” per se, but yes, you are expected to step up and be fast. For me going into these meets were always this sense of I hope I can do this. I guess we’ll see what happens. And then I’d walk into that indoor pool ( most dramatic piece for me was the smell, coming from outdoor all year, walking into an indoor environment and smelling the chlorine, still doesn’t something to this day, or seeing a comp pool set up could also work), and my mindset would immediately change. It would go from that “it is what it is” attitude, to “alright, now it’s time to get down to business” and a smile would come across my face. I love that feeling, and today feels strangely very similar.
So I smile and know it’s really time to take care of business now. With the hard work I have put in, the even harder work I am willing to do if needed, and the TEAM I have behind me, cancer doesn’t stand a chance. It may have been it’s best bet to try to use myself against myself and allow me to bury myself before I even knew what was going on, but rest assured, that plan failed! 😉
I am STRONG!
I am READY!
And I will WIN!
Thanks TEAMjeff and let’s do this!